I am going to vent my frustrations below. I am not saying that I am right. I might offend some people. But still I want to share my feelings if not all these pent up frustrations will affect my work and sleep.
I went to school thinking that I had the familiarization tour to the holding school in the morning and will have my 2 periods to go through Maths and Science papers with the class. In the end I was wrong, my tour was exactly during my only 2 periods of the day with the class.
Incident 1:
1st period I had PE, it looked as if it was going to rain, so I used the canteen instead. While I was halfway through going to start the game, the P5s came down and needed the space. I shared the space with them. The I carried on with the game and someone walked over to tell me to quieten my kids because my kids were making too much noise and the P5s couldn't hear the announcements. Which kids won't make noise when they play??? I was pretty pissed and I told that person I am going to stop my game. At that moment, the person making the announcements finished making the announcements. Why didn't they make the announcement elsewhere in the first place???? They were using the mic.. I was using my voice. I didn't complain that they were noisy, they still complained that mine was noisy. Sigh.
Incident 2: Miscommunication
Managed to get the 2nd period to go into my class to go through the papers. Wanted to do Maths, but I don't have the analysis paper. So I did Science instead. My kids told me that the teacher of my 3rd period said I don't have to go to her class. So I continued to go through the questions with them. My class Chinese teacher called and asked if she had to come back to my class. I happily told her she could rest in the staff room. Then that teacher from another class walked over and asked why I didn't go into her class. I almost erupted. I clarified with her and she said she didn't say that. So well, either my kids told me the wrong things or I heard the wrong thing. Anyway, thank God my Chinese teacher was willing to go into the other class and I could stay in mine to continue.
Incident 3:
4th period, bell just rang and the kids from the other class were already out of their class waiting for me. Extra stress came when I wanted to collect a consent form for today's activity after school. Only 5 forms, but NO ONE remembers who took the form except my ex monitoress. I was collecting back the Science papers and the 5 forms at the same time with a class waiting for me outside. Immense frustrations built up when 2 owned up with EMPTY forms and said that they couldn't make it. Didn't I tell them to check with their parents first before getting the forms???!! In the end I went for my next PE lesson in a rush. Thank God the kids made my day. The boys actually know how to set up the playing area themselves! The kids saved the day!
Incident 4: Continued from above...
Finally got back all the 5 forms. Only the ex monitoress can make it for the activities. I was really disappointed. I felt so angry with myself for being sick and on MC.
Incident 5:
My boss asked me to submit some budget and I don't remember her telling me to submit it today. I almost wanted to cry. I had not started on it because I thought I still had time.
Incident 6:
Some girls came to ask me if there is netball today. Someone went around making announcements and apparently they didn't know about it. I went to scold the girls who were supposed to make the announcements. She said she already told the teacher in the class to make the announcement on their behalf. Again, I was angry with myself for being sick and not informing them myself. So whose fault is it??
Incident 7:
A post exam activity extended their activity time without informing me nor booked the hall. So it affected my afternoon post exam activity. I went up to the hall to ask. No teachers around. Only instructors. So I asked the instructors. He said, "I don't know what happened. We were told to do this. Why not you talk to the teacher in charge?" I told him we have another activity in the hall. Then he replied, "The school paid for this." I almost shouted at him, "We also paid for the skipping activity!" Called the teacher in charge and she told me to tell the instructor to bring the P6 pupils down to the canteen. I went to told him, he said only left with 20 minutes so just let them continue. I told him he is affecting my skipping. And he had wasted 10 minutes of the kids' precious time. To make things worse, he kept telling me to cool down and not be so angry. I wanted to ask him to shout up and get going.
With so many frustrating incidents in a day, it really caused me to feel like quitting teaching. Makes me feel that I can never trust others to do things on my behalf. I better not be sick the next time. And even if I am, I better not take MC, because shit will just fall when I come back. I will only be more sick than before.
I am trying my best to encourage myself to be POSITIVE. It will be better tomorrow. No more markings but time to finish up all the admin. So I should be happy.
*P/S: Please pardon my bad language. I am too lazy to change.
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